Cursors

It’s there.

Blinking.

The thin vertical bar.

ON

OFF

ON

OFF

It’s intimidating. For a while now I’ve had this Evernote titled ‘First post’. I would open it, read the title, and just watch the cursor flicker; challenging me to write something.

What is the first thing you say to the world? Or, maybe more accurate, my immediate family members and maybe a few friends who are interested in spelling and grammatical errors.

Actually, let me take a step back. Why would I want to start a blog in the first place? Why would I want to etch my thoughts into the harsh terrain of the no-holds-barred webscape(Should I have went with “Netscape”? Twenty years ago that would have killed.)? To say, these are my ideas everyone, please be kind.

I mean we all know the Internet has about as much forgiveness as eighth graders do for a fashionably awkward substitute teacher. I feel like I’m stepping into a classroom wearing my pleated high water jeans(it’s casual Friday), a short-sleeved dress shirt, bolo tie, and a mullet that is quite frankly, the bee’s knees, hoping that the eighth graders of the Internet won’t verbally pulverize my self-esteem before I can skip lunch to silently cry in a restroom stall.

But I thought the bolo tie was casual AND dressy.
*sniff
And why did they bring my mom into this?
*sniff 
*sniff
*blows nose into the only toilet paper square I can find

So why do it?

To be honest, I want to do it for me. I enjoy creating. I enjoy making film and music and stories and laughter and excitement. I like making stuff. I want my kids to see me making stuff. I want a place to put said stuff. A place to keep my thoughts and experiences on making stuff. A place at the very least I can reference to remind myself that making stuff is not always easy. That this is what I believe about creativity. That it’s possible to bring a thought into existence. To look at posts like this and say, see, I’ve done it before, maybe I can do it again. To create motivation and accountability to DO.

I also think there are many others in a similar boat. People that want to make stuff. People with creativity that may be buried under the machine of life. People that wish they had time to paint, sing, write, sculpt; to create new business models, stronger community, engaging environments, financial strategies, you name it. I believe we all have a desire to bring an idea into fruition, and many of us are. I’m never more inspired to create than when I see someone else creating. Regardless of if I like it or not I usually think:
Wow, good for them. They made something. I want to make something.

I think we can help each other unearth our inner makers. I want to know what you are creating. That will push me to create which hopefully will push you back. Seriously, leave links or descriptions in the comments section or email me—or just tell me at lunch family members. It’s not bragging. It’s encouraging. It’s helpful to us all.

Because many times it’s just staring at the blinking cursor of a blank canvas, unplayed instrument, block of clay, notepad, or backlit screen of varying resolution. It pulses away with all the time in the world. It’s got no where to go. But we do. We have places to go, things to do.

One thing I’m doing is this blog. I’ve decided to challenge the cursor. To chase it down leaving a trail of words in my wake. My only hope is that the trail is at least halfway intelligible. Writing in this sense is new for me. I have no disillusions about it being a journey. So bear with me as I try to find my voice. I have no doubt it will have it’s share of throat clearing, cracks, and squeaks. You know…like an eighth grader.

5 Comments

  1. Luis Fortun said:

    And so it begins….

    Finally, Ryan Long! Great to see you add your unique perspective, humor, twisted and skewed (in a sarcastic, witty and relevant way) view of the world of the wide web. I, for one, can’t wait to be inspired and challenged by your future additions, but for now, I will simply rejoice in the fact that you have unleashed your creativity on the mankind. We will be better for it.

    Your friend,

    Lu

    December 17
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  2. Serenity said:

    Ryan Freakin’ Long. This blog is beautiful (the whole thing – the title, the design, blah, blah – it’s PERFECT.) And after reading a few posts – I read this one last – the create-something-or-die-trying inside of me is basically on fire. Probably giving me an ulcer. You’re the bomb. I don’t want to get up at 5:30, but if that’s what I have to do, I’m with you. Let’s never stop making stuff. Ever. (And can you please make a movie with Jake some time, because omg every video you put up turns him into a tiny Martin Scorcese for three days, “Can I please make a movie, Mom? Ok, write a script and I’ll think about it. I’ve already got one. It goes like this….)

    December 18
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    • Ryan Long said:

      Well aren’t you just super kind. Thanks Seren! You are an inspiration. I know of a lot more people that want to write a book than those who actually have. Well done, and keep it up. Yes, 5:30am is not fun, but doing something is. We can do it.

      Yes. It would be great to make something with Jake. He would no doubt be awesome at it.

      December 18
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  3. Kathy said:

    Like Serenity, I read this post last, and I just want to cry from happiness. (I do that. Sorry.) Yes, please make stuff. (In addition to those fantastic children who are going to rock the world.)

    I’m making books… since we won’t be having lunch this week, I thought I’d just tell you.

    December 18
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  4. Ryan Long said:

    You are awesome. As you have also earned the past tense of the word “make” concerning books. Like I told Seren, I only know a handful of people that have “made books.” Super inspiring. Keep it up.

    December 18
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